I'm Still Meggie From Da Block

nervous. . .

Tue, 08 Aug 2006 00:02:00 GMT

so i have this modeling competition at 7 in Hollywood.
if i win, i get a two page spread in Vogue. & cash. & press coverage. or at least that's what they're telling people.
& i FINALLY found a shirt to wear for it. it's from Bebe, go figure haha. but omg it's ADORABLE.
it's read & white & it's a cross between a peasant blouse & a corset. very Swiss Miss. but omg i was freaking out when i saw it cuz it's PERFECT.
& now i'm just trying to psyche myself up enough so i can go in there & KICK SOME ASS! woo hoo!

wish me luck everybody!!
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IRELAND LASSIE!!!

Thu, 22 Jun 2006 06:04:49 GMT

SOOOOOO... I'm freaking-jumping-off-the-walls-crazy-excited right now.

So a few months ago, my DAD, who is still an actor, had an audition with ANG LEE, the director of Brokeback Mountain.
He goes in, NAILS it, & Ang Lee tells him it's for some period piece in... Ireland? I dunno, something like that.
So he says he wanted him to go to the UK around summer. Well we kinda forgot about it, because stuff like this can fall through sometimes, & we hadn't heard back from him.
But THEN... just when I was having a mini mental breakdown today because I had to get THE FUCK OUT OF CALI, my dad comes literally skipping in & smiling & is like, "OMG Meg you're going to LOVE me."
Now really, I love my father. & he knows this. It's like very common knowledge to anyone. So i'm thinking... ok... what could be sooo great that I would love him even MORE? If that was even possible? awww *tearjerker* i know...

& he just looks at me & said "Remember that audition I had a few months back? Well... Ang Lee just called me & wants me to be in Dublin preferably by Monday."
& I was like "OMG DAD!!! that's GREAT!" but then I was thinking like... ok, why would I POSSIBLY be HAPPY that he's leaving me to go the UK, the ONE place I want to go more than anywhere, & leaving me with my mother, aka Der Fuhrer... why?
So apparently, he knew I was thinking this, & he says, "Wait... there's more... when I went into the second audition, I showed him your headshot & he was very interested in you. He wants you to come too."

OMG!!!!! I hate to say this but I sounded like a total white girl. I was like "OMG NO FREAKING WAY THIS IS TOTALLY AWESOME!"
it's ok tho. In moments of extreme excitement it's excusable... ahem... yeahhhhh...

So anyways, turns out airfare tickets include the price of every single meal for every single person in a third world country, buying the freaking plane, & then Europe as well.
Ya. they're THAT expensive. Hopefully Old Buddy Ang won't mind chipping in a bit... eh? Hopefully not.
& my dad also wants to go to Scotland (my roots), London, & maybe even AMSTERDAM!!!
Just ya know... too bad i'm going to "the land of the REALLY free" with my father. So not too much porn, hash, alcohol, & wild partying with him around haha.
I'll just keep telling myself that I'm going there when i'm 18 with friends... & THEN we'll shake things up a bit!

Sun, 18 Jun 2006 21:25:08 GMT

so, may i just say that i had my first ever high experience last night.

I, Meghan, got SO FUCKING STONED last night.

i mean, i've blazed before but it's never done anything to me. & i was always like shit, i must be immune to it or something. well that's just great.
BUT, apparently not.
& thank god haha.

& also, i had In N Out during my little "trip", and shiiiiiiit. that was the best fucking meal of my LIFE. EVER. PERIOD.

i just honestly don't think i will do it that much, because it realllly burns my throat. & obviously after a few hits, you don't really feel it, but damn that shit burns. but i can save it for special occasions ; D

could it be?

Tue, 16 May 2006 19:28:05 GMT

so ummmm
i met this awesome guy (hopefully)
& i work with him at Hollister
& he's SO DAMN CUTE.
he's from Tennessee & has this southern accent which i LOVE, cuz hello, i'm southern too.
& seriously, he's soooo sweet. & respectful. & cute as HELL.
damn. the South can really raise their boys right i swear.
& he finally asked me out for this saturday & OMG i'm so excited.
i swear, i feel like a little kid in a candy store or something. i forgot what getting asked out by a guy i LIKE feels like.
hell. it's been over a DAMN YEAR. thanks to that idiot that wasted my time.
& for once in my life, i REALLY like my job. like just everyone that works there is soo sweet & nice. there's a few girls i'm not sure on, but then again, i get along better with guys than girls. they always feel they have to compete with me or something. NO YOU DON'T.
but ya the music can be a bit LOUD & OBNOXIOUS sometimes, but then something really good can come on, & that's ok. & customers can be bitches sometimes, but all i have to do is bite my tongue, occasionally haha, & bear with them.

oh & did anyone see Grey's Anatomy last night?! OMG!!! i actually CRIED. seriously. i NEVER cry. ever. & if i do, it's veryyyyy short & in front of like NO ONE. but ya i was bawling like a baby in front of my mother & she's crying too & was like "awww honey... come here... it's ok" & AHHH that's why i don't like crying. i don't like the added attention.
but ya it was really good. & if you have never seen a episode, GO & BUY THE FIRST SEASON on DVD i swear it is SOOOO worth it.

IM 16!!!!!! ITS MY BIRTHDAYYYYYYYYYY

Thu, 10 Feb 2005 05:45:28 GMT

YAY IM 16!!!! now i can FINALLY date (with my parents knowing) and go on "car dates." o ya i should feel special. AND for my bday i got Bose speakers for my iPod (YES) and this really cool shirt from abercrombie and 50 dollars from me papa, and 100 from me grandpa, and .... lots of other cool stuff. YAY!!!!!!!! i wanna go do something CRRRRRRRRAZYYYYYYYY for me birthday! strippers? streaking? drugs? alcohol? SEX. haha jk...

anyways thanx to every one that wished me a happy birthday! i love u all!!!!

Mon, 17 Jan 2005 05:11:54 GMT

my mom won't let me out because i'm grounded. why am i grounded? because i spent the night at one of my best friend's house, without "giving her enough time in advance." wtf is that? is everyone else's mom as retarded as mine? like why would she have to know in advance if i was going to spend the night at a friend's house. i mean i called her like 5 times and left a message each time. BITCH.

and... I GOT BANGS! AHHH! i know huh?! only kristy and erin know how truly AWFUL i looked with them. but this time i PROMISE its a LOT better than like... 4th grade? theyre like giselle bundchens in that "So Sexy" ad. im still kind of getting used to them...

and... i'm getting my belly button pierced tomorrow!... AGAIN! cuz the first time, the stupid lady pierced it wrong, and so it ended up being retarded and i had to let it close up.

finally, what is your opinion on dating younger guys? say... a freshman? just wondering...

Thu, 25 Nov 2004 19:10:45 GMT

Ten random things about me:
1. when i was in 3rd grade i was ginger spice along with the rest of my spice girlz erin and kristy. we were hott!
2. i used to be in gymnastics and ballet.
3. ive played piano for... 6 years or more.
4. ive been modeling for... almost 4 years.
5. i drove my first car when i was 10.
6. i pierced my belly button. the clamp hurts more than the actual needle.
7. i've had 11 dogs.
8. i found out about santa in the 4th grade... too soon *tear*
9. i used to sneak out of my house from like 6th-7th grade... til i got caught... not a good story...
10. i've known erin and kristy the longest out of any of my friends (kindergarten).

Nine places I've visited:
1. New York
2. Ontario, Canada
3. Niagara Falls
4. Pennsylvania
5. Ohio
6. W. Virginia (haha not much there...)
7. Texas
8. Oklahoma
9. Grand Canyon

Eight things I want to do before I die:
1. be a the next Giselle Bundchen for Victoria's Secret!
2. marry some hot scottish/irish/italian/or Marine.
3. travel EVERYWHERE.
4. learn how to do the salsa, flamenco, bellydance, cumbaya...
5. get my tongues pierced... i think... maybe...
6. be the next beyonce... or britney spears, just not as slutty.
7. just be frikkin famous and RICH!
8. buy my own island.

Seven things to win my heart:
1. six pacs
2. biceps
3. electric guitar... ooh baby
4. don't be full of yourself.
5. can NOT be boring!
6. former Marine is always good...
7. never cheat on me.

Six things I believe in:
1. santy claus! right?
2. everyone is beautiful!
3. God
4. true love
5. ghosts
6. loch ness monster (i know i know... im scottish! i have too!)

Five things I'm afraid of:
1. disappointing myself
2. dark
3. fear
4. death
5. and snakes

Four favorite items in my bedroom
1. my tv
2. my star lights
3. my clothes!!!
4. my na-na (haha only few know what that is)

Three things I do everyday
1. brush my teeth like 4-5x
2. put on makeup
3. sing

Two things I'm trying not to do right now:
1. clean my room
2. ap essay

One person I want to see right now:
1. hmm... katie i miss her.

homecoming

Sun, 14 Nov 2004 09:09:29 GMT

so this is a lil late cuz i havent written in quite awhile...
so homecoming was interesting... so was my date... i dunno. it was weird. i felt like he only paid attention to me when we were at the dance. like in the car, he wouldn't hold my hand or put his arm around me or anything, but once we got to the dance, he seemed to like his hands all over me... almost as if he wanted to show me off and "claim me." god i dont know. i want someone that likes me for me! not "because shes hott." i mean really, come on. that is SUCH a turnoff. but i DID have fun. i saw all my friends there and u were all SO GORGEOUS!!!! jessica monda was able to make me go out and dance, cuz we all know how ubershy i am when it comes to dancing... but after she and i started doing the salsa, i kinda stayed out there for like 2 hours. ya. i swear i lost like 2 pounds dancing! WHOA! after the dance, we went to denny's with adam graff, stephanie, casey, his gf lauren, jessica, clay... ya and me and bryan. haha... bryans earrings. HAHAHAHA LMFAO. i don't need to express my opinion on them... hmm...
turkey tussle- we got creamed. BIG surprise, i know. my mom's like, "but phs has spirit!" ya. we're a bunch of spirited motherfuckers. i bet we would have more if we ever actually won a game! well i think we won hoover... but then again, that's hoover. u like HAVE to beat them. or else, you just really are a loser. AAAAAAAAAAND... i saw my noey! ANAZON!!! god i missed u so much! and you're absolutely STUNNING! my mom was like "was that noelle? she's gotten really cute!" and i was like "umm... when was she ever NOT?" we DEFINITELY need to get together and take more shocking photos of our baywatch babes-ness! and paula is so sweet! shes so cute! she was like "wow you're really pretty!" gosh *blushes* thanx! u made my night! see, it means more when a girl says it. cuz when guys say it, its like "hey babe ur hott!" yeah... i hate that.... its not meaningful! but thanx paula!
side note: brandon~ hope u feel better. u know i love ya. ;) noey~ i hope u find your glasses! im absolutely SICK over your loss! kathryn~ hope your aches and pains go away! larae~ i hope u feel better about everything!

for kristy and erin...

Sun, 24 Oct 2004 06:14:26 GMT

whoa! i saw katie carter tonight! she came into epic while i was working and i didn't really recognize her until she came up to me.
K: excuse me, but is your name meghan?
M: umm... yes. why?
K: do u remember me?
M: no.
K: i went to elementary school with u.
M: (now as soon as she said this, i recognized her instantly... but i decided to have a lil fun first)/ ummm... ya i still don't remember u...
K: its katie!
M: umm... spencer?
K: no.
M: cole?
K: no....
M: uh... blackwell? (i was just thinking of like every single katie i knew lol)
K: uh no... carter!
M: carter? hmm... *puts on serious thinking face*
K: ya carter!
M: wait... o i remember u! weren't u the one who threw my watch into the pool?
K: o umm... well ya... but that wasn't me... but ya im that katie...
M: o ok ya i remember u...

and then we just small-talked. omg it felt so gooooooood. i just felt i should write this entry in your honour *cheers*

i want my b

Sat, 23 Oct 2004 20:05:02 GMT

i dont know whats going on, and i want to know NOW. they can't take her away, id die. she's my b. i only hope they go easy on her. she didn't do anything wrong. ;(

i feel so sick and out of it, my whole weekend has been ruined, and i have to go to work now for like a six hour shift. parents are bein bitches, damn can i ever win?

i just want to be famous already. that would solve everything.

o my gosh

Tue, 05 Oct 2004 00:52:02 GMT

ah i can NOT believe it. it's true. i found out what one of my friends did... ewww. i can't believe __________. i really can't. i'm just so hurt and angry and confused right now, and __________ is making no sense with the bullshit i'm hearing from this person. totally not the person i thought it was. just like the rest of them. im so disappointed and it knows it. i wana punch this person... fuck u.

Sat, 02 Oct 2004 18:53:16 GMT

gosh ok, so i'm so super jealous of like every girl that has a boyfriend. i mean i still love u all, but damn... i wish i had someone to cuddle up with at football games! and there's only one guy thats like PERFECT for me... *sigh.*
last night was fun. i went to the st. francis game, and, of course, we lost surprise...), so i went over to the other side to see what it was like to cheer for the winning team haha.i just stayed with a few of my guy friends over there. it was great to see our drummers prance around on the field at halftime. that was the second best part of the night. the other was when ena and i were like "go home bitch!" to a certain girl. hahahahaha. then after the game, my girls and i were walkin around the parking lot, ena and i trying not to get hit by cars (lmao!), while we were staring at all the TONS of hott guys that go to st. francis. good times. i'm gonna go to more st. francis games. and i'm also happy cuz i found out this one girl doesn't in fact hate me, she actually likes me, which is cool, cuz i thot she was following the "lets hate meghan" trend. and she actually stood up for me when someone was talkin shit about me! aww! thanx!
and this weekend i REALLY want to go to santa anita mall! YES! who's with me?! i actually have money to spend, and damnit, it will be spent! and tonight i work, which sucks, cuz they always give me saturday nights. o well, at least i get paid tonight.
and anyone wana teach me a few soccer tricks? PLEASE? im desperate. i think i'll make the jv team, and hopefully i will "improve." i've only been playing for about a year, and i haven't actually played a game in a year, so i'm a lil rusty...

my list of wishes...

Mon, 20 Sep 2004 23:45:46 GMT

1.) i wish i had a boyfriend. a good one. one that DOESN'T do drugs, drink TOO much, and is COMPLETELY obsessed with sex. it's just that, well, dammit that's so hard to find now a days...
2.) i wish ppl would stop talkin bout my friends in front of me, even after i ask them to stop.
3.) i wish ppl would stop talkin shit about ME. honestly, what did i ever do??? NOTHING.
4.) i wish i didn't have the attention span of a flea. heehee brittney.
5.) i wish i could take driver's ed NOW.
6.) i wish i had money to buy my friends bday gifts! sorry guys! when i DO, i totally will!
7.) i wish my mom and dad would stop fighting. dude, my mom told me the other day that if it weren't for sean and i, she would leave my dad. that's really fucking comforting.
8.) i wish my agent would actually GET me some more jobs. i think he's kinda full of shit. i'm going to hollywood.
9.) i wish hilary duff was dead.
10.) i wish i could tell my parents the truth about stuff i've done...
11.) i wish ppl wouldn't backstab, like at all. life would be SO much easier.
12.) i KINDA wish i hadn't quit the soccer team now... dammit...
13.) i wish i was a victoria's secret model.
14.) i wish i had something better to do with my time than make dumb lists like this.
***sorry if u read this, u deserve a sticker and a kiss *mwah****

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 06:37:09 GMT

so yesterday was the first day of school... hmm it was ok. i just want to get out already. i'm gonna be famous dammit! there's a kinda new hot guy, who I think looks like a Greek god... just a lil... my senior and junior guys were tryin to hook me up with this lil freshman haha. god he looked 10. well, so do some other ppl i know, but i wont say names. i LOVE mr. van leuven's class cuz hes awesome. i WANT to make some more new friends, cuz im sick of all the stupid shit people say about me, then try to cover it up and are all fake to my face. just don't even try it, cuz i know you'll just talk about me as soon as i turn my back. and a few i never did anything to, so fuck it. cept my fab 5 friends. love u guys. and sum other ppl as well... but other than that, i could really give a damn. haha i think the greatest excuse someone has come up with for NOT liking me was "cuz shes a preppy bitch." hmm... ya so bcuz i like to dress preppy... that makes me a bitch? sorry, but i dont understand, must be the blonde. but i've got my TRUE girls, who will love me no matta what, even if i am being a bitch, and they can tell me i am, cuz i respect them. and to certain ppl, DONT TALK ABOUT MY BEST FRIENDS RIGHT IN FUCKING FRONT OF ME!!! that's just so stupid i cant believe it. then they go up and are all sickly sweet, after they just TOTALLY dissed them right in front of me like 5 seconds earlier. god. hmm.. sorry if this was a little bitchy, but i just don't feel so damn very loved right now.

Cameron from France

Sat, 04 Sep 2004 07:02:34 GMT

so tonight i went to paseo with the fab 5 and we met these really gullible guys who believed thatmy name was Cameron and i was from France. then they asked me why i didn't have a French accent, and i told them that it was because my dad was a Marine fighter pilot in the military and my family moved around a lot, and we were in California on summer vacation visting my cousin Brittney haha, cuz my dad got a 3 month leave. haha. at least some of it is kind of true, like the part about my dad being a fighter pilot in the Marines, and i AM French... and then we all started making up names and where we were from. like now Lauren and Kirin and Yunia are Kristen and Veronica and Elena (who's from Costa Rica lol) and then Ena was like the only one who wasn't lying about where she was from or her name, and she told them that she was born in Bosnia, lived in Germany, and then moved to the U.S. which is actually all true, and they didn't believe her... next week i'm gonna be either Keira or Cameron from Britain with a genuine British accent haha... we saw Nikky, Fab and Tianna there. i really like those chics even tho i don't know them that well. they're awesome. and... school starts in 6 days!!! AHHH!!! i haven't even gone school shopping yet. dammit. i'm so not ready.

class schedule...

Thu, 02 Sep 2004 03:17:52 GMT

so today i waited in the hot sun for like an hour, cuz my dear mummy wouldn't let me cut up front into the shade with my friends. ack she ruins everything. but anyways, i got my schedule:

2: AP Euro History- J. Goodman
3: Chemistry 1- Staff (haha YES, that means they haven't found anyone yet...)
4: Advisory Drama- Van Leuven
5: French 2- J. Hart
6: Geometry 1- N. Barragan
*7: Dance- L. Pinho
*8: English 2- Joy-Macias
*last two periods might be switched around...

so ya... comment me back and tell me what your schedules are!

first day of work...

Tue, 31 Aug 2004 03:16:50 GMT

today was my first day of work at epic/quik. gosh it was challenging as hell. i have to memorize all these clothing codes and styles, and then transactions and returns/exchanges. that shit is HARD but it was still fun. i go back on wednesday to learn the "more challenging stuff." but the people there are really nice to me, even though i'm like the youngest one there, cuz they're all in college. then i saw Nate afterwards, and he stayed with me till my dad picked me up. i approve A LOT brittney. i'ma hook u up biatch. haha. and have to go at TEN AM in the morning on wednesday!? i havent woken up that early since summer began! i better get used to it tho.

and...

Mon, 30 Aug 2004 19:16:41 GMT

and how do i put pix onto my lj? someone help me i'm so goddamned blonde.

help

Mon, 30 Aug 2004 01:56:26 GMT

how do I write in different fonts, colors, and styles?

and my brother threw his game boy at my head, and now i have a fucking bruise on it and it HURTS dammit.

Mon, 30 Aug 2004 01:23:06 GMT

So I just got back from Big Bear, and DAMN I didn't see Adam, so I couldn't take a picture of his gay-ish-ness... but I'll be up in October, so I'll get it then! And then I got really drunk last night, cuz we were at this Mexican restaurant, and I had a little too mush margarita, heehee. and it was a regular one, so more tequila in it then usual. then when I got back to the cabin, I had these 2 bottles of Smirnoff vodka that my uncle had left in the fridge and it was GOOD. and then I got a lil (k... well.. a LOT) tipsy, because apparently, when you haven't eaten anything all day, and you're in high altitude, alcohol hits ya like ten times stronger. thanx dad for tellin me that AFTER i had all that shit. I didn't get a very bad hangover at all either... so I guess I can handle it haha. anyways, this 25-30 yr. old guy in the Vons up there hit on me, and started following me around the supermarket, and I was like uh ok... this isn't fun... so i finally dodged him. ewww he was CREEPY. i mean, he walked up behind me, and put his arm on my waist, and I thought it was my dad, so I turned and he was like "hey baby... what's your name?" and i was like "o wow uh... hi?" and then i kinda ran lol. ya i'm a TOUGH ONE haha. and tomorrow i go to training for my job. ya. i hope the hot guy trains me! MEOWWWW!

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 20:02:43 GMT

ok so YAY! my lj is fixed! YAYUH! thanx larae! U ROCK! *claps for larae* hmm... yes so should i get bangs? or no? gosh im bored, i need to be entertained...

I NEED/WANT A BOYFRIEND!

yes, i think that if i had that (just one!), i would be satisfied. yes.

so neways, my sweet, darling brother told me yesterday that he would have rather had me stay in arizona forever. sweet, huh? like as soon as i got home, he walked right by me and didn't say anything. then my parents MADE him come in to see me, and he was like "what do you want?" to me and i was like gosh sen, so glad to see that ya missed me. prick. and then he was like nice to me for about 10 seconds, right after i gave him his presents. and then my parents are like, "oh no, he loves you." ha, ya my ass he does. anyone want to be my nrew brother?

You don't have to thank me now...you can thank me later...

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 18:09:50 GMT

LaRae again...yeah...fixed it!

if you need more help you know where to find me... lol

*mUaH*

ƒin

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 07:30:58 GMT

hey, this be noelle...

and what the hell is wrong with this lay ray????

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 06:29:40 GMT

YAY! i THINK i figured out how to fix my comments. my stupid blonde-ness got experimentive, and i was messin around with my lj yesterday, and sumthin happened with my comments, like i couldn't view them. but noey is super smart and told me what i did wrong. hmm... i'm so bored now. and i wana go back-to-school shopping before school starts, and go to universal studios and raging waters. try to do that and all of my ap homework, ya this should be fun.
and also... should i get bangs? if yes, then bangs like keira knightley, giselle bundchen, mischa barton... or... charlize theron? anyone else? i had them until like 4th grade, but we all know i looked like an ugly mushroom, so thank god i got rid of them. they started from like the middle of the top of my head, and were thick and bushy! sexy, huh? ya you know you're jealous. ;)

Thu, 26 Aug 2004 04:58:17 GMT

everyone like my sexy juicy lips? haha. yes u do! neways... i just got back from arizona with britt britt. we had lotsa fun and spent most of our time in the pool and... working out in the gym... and tryin to sleep in late... and did SOME ap hw. ugh i know. and uh... hmmm... i updated my lj! and made it pretty! did anybody notice? ;) and lets see... some highlights of the trip... look brittney! im a duck!... where i then proceeded to stick my head under water and my ass in the air. haha yes i know, im classy aren't i? and then today we went into this gas stop station to get candy, and it was FULL of all these day laborers who were like leering at us and looking us up and down as soon as britt and i walked in. ick. it was really unconfortable. and ummm.... my agent called with 3 modeling jobs for me! YAY! *please let one be for victoria's secret, please* haha wishful thinking, yes i know. but SOME DAY, that will be me... and islands called back and wants me to come work for them, but i already took the clothing store job, so HA SUCKERS! shoulda called back sooner! and so now... all i have left to do is my room, go school shopping, WORK, modeling... and ap homework ;( damn i hate doing that. o well... ppl write me back! i missed y'all! *mwah*